you, sit with you in your ashes, maybe even pray with you if you have a common faith. What they’re not going to do is judge you for being “weak” or “human” because they know that they are too.
This kind of relationship takes effort. It requires a willingness to reach out, test the waters of friendship, in order to have a mutual commitment to being vulnerable in your weakest moments and expecting confidential treatment. It requires maintenance and a deepening of trust when there is no emergency so that when actually there is, you feel free to reach out. In return, of course, it means you being available to return the same favor and consideration.
When you need that person – and for doctors, it is probably going to be multiple times in your career – they are going to be your life preserver.
Now, does this have to be a physician? I suppose not, although they may be more uniquely qualified to understand your stress points than others. I’m hoping if you are married that your spouse is one of your 4 AM friends. But frankly, on some things, I really need somebody other than my wife to talk with and gain perspective and encouragement from.
There is a scientifically based reason for all of this by the way: did you know that friendship – the tending to and befriending of others – actually releases oxytocin into your body?* That’s far healthier for the long term than any other chemical that does the same. And it’s natural too!
So can I encourage you: take a moment to think of somebody you trust that might be your 4 AM Friend. Don’t dive into the deep end of the pool in the relationship, but rather wade in gradually, opening up areas of your heart and mind to see if they reciprocate. Pro-actively, keep an eye out for your buddy and they’ll keep their eye out for you – and when you’re in a pinch, you’ll be within arm’s reach.
*. Carter, C.S., Lederhendler, I.I., & Kirkpatrick, B., eds. (1999). The integrative neurobiology of affiliation. Cambridge, Mass.: MIT Press